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okay, so on my 18th birthday i’m going to get a memorial tattoo for my bestfriend Adny who passed away last summer. and i was totally sure as to what i was going to get for him but now that i think about it i’m not sure. i was originally going to get, “shine on, you crazy diamond” across my back in a pretty cursive or something. (if you don’t know what that’s referencing, it’s lyrics/song title of a Pink Floyd song. it was his favorite band and the song reminds me a lot of him yada yada..) but i don’t know if i should get that. i don’t want to get a generic cross or anything like that because i want it to be something special and Adny related. i just want to make sure it isn’t a dumb idea?
i don’t know how i’m going to feel about this.. i’m scared honestly. but i know i need to do it.
fuck, i miss you so much Adny. i wish you we’re here right now. i just wish i could talk to you one more time, tell you about everything that’s happened since you’ve been gone, just to hear your voice and to know that you’re much happier now would be more than enough..
i love you Adny, i will never forget you. i know you’re watching down on everyone making sure everything’s okay. don’t ever stop that. i’ll see you soon man.
this sleeping alone on the weekdays shit really sucks. i need my boyfriend to keep me warm :(
i am not confident enough to be in a relationship. i have serious jealousy issues and i’m going to end up pushing my boyfriend now away because i’m so fucking paranoid he’s off cheating on me or something. i fucking resent the shit out of Jordan, if he wouldn’t have fucked my head up so bad i would be able to act normal in a relationship. ugh.
I go for guys below my standards because i’m a fucking weirdo and i shouldn’t. They’re all no good for me and i know it. I need someone actually good for me, doing something with their life, not psycho douchey dirt balls that i seem to be attracted to. If they’re not literally perfect or next to it i’m not even going to take a second look. I think i want to be single. Be alone, because guys are just annoying to me now. They all remind me of Jordan and it makes me sick. Like, if i could find a guy that gave me that butterfly feeling again and they were actually good to me i’d want to date the fuck out of them, but i can’t seem to find that anymore.
tattooed on the bottom of my foot. like i’m walking on sunshine.
I’M SO CLEVER.
